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  1. Because I was working on the big scenery project for most of January, it has taken until today for me to complete my first painting of 2018 – and it's only a small one, but what it represents is massive.

    2018 is the year that will see me silence all my niggles as I push my work, and my brand, in the direction of sharing my own journey of overcoming self doubt and a lifelong overthinking habit and hopefully inspiring and motivating others to do the same (I wrote more about this here). This is a scary shift for me – and this painting symbolises this moment!

    The painting was inspired by a social media post I have seen shared on many occasions – and one which I think holds a very effective and powerful message. The original post is below – and I apologise for not crediting its original author as I have no idea where it originated from.


    Now, as I said, I love the lesson in this in terms of showing the lasting effect that bullying can have (and I also include many other things in this that life can throw at us along the way!) but I felt unhappy about the suggestion of the permanence of the creases – that if we suffer something that affects us emotionally we are bound by those effects for the rest of our lives; as if our victim status is inescapable.

    And this is where the painting comes in – and why it's called 'Beyond The Crumpled Paper'. I would hazard a guess that not many, if any, people make it into adulthood without some 'creases' in their paper and I think these define us in an incredibly powerful way. It is these creases which make us unique – the same as everyone else on a basic level (we all start off as a plain, flat, unblemished piece of paper) but we develop our own, beautiful, complicated and intricate pattern that makes us oh, so very different, to anyone else who has ever set foot on this planet. And that is amazing.

    This pattern of crumples tells a story of life – of difficult times overcome and challenges survived. Instead of them being a reminder of how we felt at these times, we should let them serve as a reminder that we came through those times and can now be brave and build exciting times ahead. And that is where I am now – working hard to accept all my crumples and creases (not just the ones on my face!) and move on stronger, not despite them but because of them. Life is about living beyond the crumpled paper, not trapped within it.





    final crumpled paper

  2. Well, it's Monday morning and I have got a full, uninterrupted day in the studio planned. I was looking forward to getting stuck into the tortoise I have just started (the meaning of which will be explained in due course!) as well as the small obscure piece that is also underway (which has a BIG meaning which will also be explained in due course!).


    Now, if you follow me on social media you will know I have 2 paintings underway at once, which is unusual for me, because I wanted to try and push my painting technique by introducing oils which take much longer to dry than my usual acrylics.

    Well, I have already learnt one very important lesson since starting with the oils last week - and that is I am too impatient to use oils!

    The background of the tortoise I painted last Thursday is still too wet for me to work on it today and after spending all weekend giving it a wide berth and pouncing on the kids every time they went in my studio in case they brushed against it, I have decided that right now, oils just aren't for me! 

    So I return to my trusty acrylics, a house that will no longer have to smell of turps and a quicker working pace which suits me just right. And I will no longer have to swoop around my small studio like a ninja in case I touch any wet paint!

    Impatient? Me?...

    Im notimpatienti just hatewaiting